sad

today was frustrating. i was pissy. it started with a new student brought to my door. I had gotten a student the day before that I haven't been able to connect to yet, so one more was frustrating. not to say i won't love her, because i will. but more annoying was the fact that i spent most of yesterday calling the office to get them to bring a desk and chair for my first new student, which they never did, and eventually i had to scrounge one off another teacher.

so when the office secretary brought the new girl to my door, i wasn't exactly polite when i said, "i will not take her in my until you bring a desk and a chair."

i'm rarely if ever rude to people and the secretary didn't know what to do with that. but a desk and chair were brought within the half hour. honestly. to get any favors done for you in our school you have to be rude or showing cleavage to a janitor.

then the day continued with frustrating dead ends when it came to trying to get help for a student i am almost sure is being sexually abused. and honestly, i don't think he is going to get the help he needs until he physically harms another student. an eight year old. why is the system so desperate that we can't do any preventative care for our students?

and then i got frustrated thinking about Joe Wilson and his asinine remarks toward Obama. Which I am CONVINCED he felt he could do because Obama is black. Never ever has a president been under so much scrutiny simply because he had the audacity to want to be president. Obama's record is shockingly clean, and the best that the right can bring against him is inflammatory b.s. about him being a Muslim. i mean, seriously. disagree with his politics, but how dare you disrespect the office of president by yelling in a congressional meeting?

And someone posted on one of my brother's posts about health care. My brother posted a statistic that one person in America dies every fifty minutes due to not having health care. Or something to that effect. The response from one of our mutual friends? Oh, one unborn baby dies every twenty minutes in abortion.

Seriously???? SERIOUSLY!?!?!?!?! i spent most of the ride to school composing responses to that post. ok. abortion is sad. no argument. and health care reform is necessary. why are these at odds with one another? Why can you only choose to care about one? and how many of those babies that are being aborted would even be offered health care? because a lot of the aborted babies are black, and from what i've experience in the past four years or so, not too many people care too much about little black kids. other than to say that their parents are inadequate and it's a shame they can't pull themselves together. i honestly don't think people should be allowed to be pro life unless they are willing to actually care for the needs of the child from the time they are born until the time they die. personally care for those needs. i mean, abortion is hardly even the tip of the ice burg of a pro life platform.

anyway. i'm in a bad mood. i get that. fuel for the fire. but that does feel better than apathy.